Lately, things haven't been yellow. But like the girl, Karrissa I believe her name is, I'm trying to find a little yellow in everything.
What's been giving Elizabeth the "blue"s? Probably prednisone. I hate the drug so very much which is why I'm cutting it off cold turkey tomorrow. I can't deal with the hopeless depression anymore. I can't handle the suicidal thoughts. I can't handle the negative body image it's given me. I simply can't.
If I could tell someone with these diseases who is newly DX one thing it's this: You'll have days where you conquer the beast & you'll have days where you'll be utterly defeated. Mentally. Emotionally. Physically. Spiritually.
My score in 2014 is 4-0(as far as hospitalizations go).
It's so hard to fight a disease that is literally trying to kill you. It's even harder to fight several autoimmune diseases. Your body is working to kill you & keep you alive. I've lost the battles but I'm going to win the war against my health. I know I will. The devil just wants to keep me away from looking at the big picture.
Yellow: I got out of the house and went out to eat
Blue: Hot flashes, diarrhea, pain. Lots of pain.
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